Bloated and getting bigger

day 8

well up until today I had been feeling very good, full of energy and proud of myself. So far I have had no hunger and attended social functions without any cravings. Tonight though I faced some strong opposition to the MC. I find it brings up strong reactions from people which I find interesting. I would write more but I am tired. Suffice to say that my stomach is really bloated....ugh

see saw see saw

Day 5

I will  forgo a day 4 entry except to say i kinda enjoyed the swf and had a good day full of energy and yoga was great. Today I have been up, way up emotionally then down and irritable. I had a realisation that I do not have good relationship with obstacles that can occur in daily life. The process of booking a rental car sent me into a temper tantrum and to retell the story will not only put me back there but stun the reader of this blog into a mind numbing boredom. Anyhoo feel better now after some serious chanting and self reflection I am now grown up. I feel cleaner internally, having intense dreams that I can hardly remember and am dumping my spiritual toxins. I am now willing to learn how it feels to treasure my own life. 

Day 3

Well today was tons better phew. I was so moody yesterday that it amazes me that I still have loved ones! I did the swf this morning followed by 16oz of water to chase it down and felt clear and full of energy so went to a yoga class. I wanted to go to the Buddhist center to chant but could not get there due to the march. It is Gay Pride today so i went home and people watched from my window. My favorite sight were two roller blader's skating down the street in gold lame capes, sparkly gold skates and gorgeous face masks. They looked like divas from outer space. I love gay pride as the whole area is filled with joy and celebration. Anyway fewer food temptations and I am flirting with the idea of going for 21 days. I'm just saying.........

Doing the master cleanse

Day 2. Saturday June 28th

Today sucked big time. I awoke irritated, feeling angry and resentful as the day wore on. I felt highly sensitive, pulled in all directions by people and my responsibilities. I retreated to my cave as soon as I was able (phones off, curtains drawn) until it was time for me to go to a birthday bbq......Yes you heard right, bbq. Once i dragged myself there i did my best to ward off the desire to shove as many burgers, hot dogs, chicken and corn into my mouth and begin anew the next day. However my irritation had improved being around loving friends and I summoned the strength to resist eating, if only to avoid having to experience the emotional torture of the first 3 days of cleansing all over again. Ugh